The downside about being a lone female business traveller is that unlike men, we don’t tend to go to the bar for a drink before dinner. Rather, we sit in our hotel room and order room service. None of this is good for my continued lack of training.
So much for the Jessie Pavelka program changing my ways – as suspected, nothing has changed. Nothing at all!
So, as I sit in the business class lounge of the hotel I am staying in (oh yes – I was brave and ventured out the room!), I beat myself up about the fact that I should in fact be in the gym! Business travel – not good for the soul. Well, not mine anyway!
So, I’m conscious that I have neglected my blog for some time now. My main reason – I haven’t done any training. I got off to a flying start but very quickly crashed and burned. The news of my arthritis didn’t help, but if I’m completely honest, it wasn’t just that. Laziness set in, yet again.
I think I am inherently lazy. To a certain extent, I think we all are. It’s just that some of us tend to hide behind it and use it as an excuse. Tiredness, pain, boredom, bad day at the office – all excuses I have used time and time again.
I watched a Jessie Pavelka programme on TV tonight – Fat: The Fight of My Life. Now, I am by no means in the same category as the people featured in each episode, since I only have around 30lbs to lose, however the issues we face are the same. That vicious circle of eat, feel depressed, eat more. I’ve battled for a long time now with issues around my eating/weight, as those who are close to me know only too well. Unfortunately when you are in this frame of mind, comments like “you don’t need to lose weight” and “you’re fine the way you are” don’t help. It’s difficult to explain, but those of you out there who may read my blog and suffer the same way will understand.
Anyway, the whole point of this now rather long winded post, was to say that I intend to get “back on the wagon”! Oh yes, we’ve heard it all before. Yes, you have. This time, however, I intend to stick to it. As was mentioned in the programme tonight, if you don’t have your health, you have nothing – what better reason to get back into the gym?! Ah yes, the slight issue of The Dopey challenge in 19 weeks time – gulp!
So, it’s been a few weeks since I last posted an update – mostly because there’s not been any training to post about!
My news from the hospital about the osteoarthritis has taken a bit to come to terms with. More so the fact that the surgery will only last at best, five years. That’s not long at all.
I celebrated (if that’s the word for it!) my 40th birthday on July 26 – could this be a turning point? A good one, at that?!
I weighed myself on Monday, as always, and was horrified at what I saw on the scales. I’m not entirely sure why I was so surprised – I know that I’ve been over-eating, so should have expected it!
So, with renewed vigour, the diet started yesterday (two days in and I’m surviving so far!) and I even made it to the gym tonight, albeit for a “walk” on the treadmill. Still, a good friend once told me “Yvonne, it’s a marathon, not a sprint”. How very true!
It was with great trepidation that I went to hospital today to attend my orthopaedic out patients appointment. I’ve had a problem with my right great toe joint for over 3 years now and have tried various solutions – ignoring it, pain killers, podiatrists etc. etc. (all to no avail).
The news was kind of what I expected given what my podiatrist had told me. The only solution to my problem is surgery. It was confirmed today that at 39 years old, I have osteoarthritis.
So, the decision… Surgery is likely to be September, subject to an MRI to confirm damage to the joint. After surgery I will be in plaster for 6 weeks. So, do I go ahead and train until date of surgery, hope that recovery isn’t too bad and do Dopey regardless? Or do I delay surgery until after Dopey?